can i do that?

i am tired of doing the same things over and over again,
i am sick of the fact that i need a breakout
and i have no escape,
sadly, i can not laugh anymore just to rise my spirit,
the laughter is a cover, a cover that i dont have,
i can't hide behind my fingers....i am to big now...
i need a revolution, a revolution in my mind,
it is time to revolt myself
against all that keeps me from moving
and do something real and palpable with my time,
i must throw the fears away,
find all words that are right and worth saying
and live each and every day as if it was the last one.
i wonder: can I do that?
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